i dunno wad 2 put as my title for my blog. lol

Thursday, April 20, 2006

new blog...http://wadeverlahzz.blogspot.com..pls relink me..

thank you ppl..=)

Sunday, April 16, 2006

weekend activity was kinda fun yup. reached dover to meet some typhoons then went to school tgt yup. kelvin, yan mei, ramesh, peishan and hwee kiat yup. and some others from other groups as well yup. then ice breakers again..then we were separted to diff groups again..but not fair la..kelvin and yan mei were same group. then the rest of us were alone in our group. only them from typhoon were in the same group again. =( owells. then left for sentosa after lunch..then games all the way until 7..was in grim reapers yup. daddy was halal boy..keep forgetin his name..hahaha..mummy was yvonne yup. =) games were quite fun yup. not bad. then showered then headed to harbourfront for dinner..latte session. haha..ate alrd i left early to go my godparents place yup.

schools startin tmr alrd..haha..kinda excited bout it yup. haha..

i like u..

Friday, April 14, 2006

hmmm..orientation this week was alrite la..a lil borin though..owells. monday had spice trng..boring. tues had introduction to school of built environment. wed had flag day. after lunch we decided not to do anymore..then went to play pool..hahaha..then went back to school after tt..met some of the typhoons after tt..talked and stuff..haha..really nice ppl to be with..my closest frens in poly yup. kelvin, yan mei, dionna, ramesh, peishan, elbon, amanda, hwee kiat they all yup. then thurs had games la..kinda crap la..but was alrite..my class 1A03 got 5th in the end..so yea. hahaha..after tt went 2 bugis to meet yan mei and amanda to get kelvin's bday prez yup. to think tt they wanted to get an ice cream cake la..hahaha..we went to buy the stuff and everythin..then headed to marina bay at 3 plus..when we gotta be there at 630 to meet the other cscc ppl coz of the mass gatherin dinner yup. so..a few of us typhoon's met up and celebrated kelvin's bday..yan mei, amanda, peishan, her fren, ramesh, hwee kiat and me yup. celebrated at the empty area at marina bay mrt in front of the toilet. hahahaha..lol. quite fun la..kinda funny oso..coz the girls where busy preparing the cake..us guys had to keep kelvin in the toilet la..hahaha..owells. then took pics..blew the cake..ate the cake..then yan mei had to go off to work..so the remaining few of us went 2 the steamboat place to play pool and arcade..as we were still freakin early..then the others came ard 7 plus..then ate and took lots of pics. haha..then after dinner cabbed to my godparents place yup.

hmmm..weekend activity tmr at sentosa..hahaha..shld be fun. really looking forward to it.. =)

Monday, April 10, 2006

mygosh..it was so sian today la..freakin staring at screens the whole day la..computer screen and the gps thingy's screen..owells..lets hope tmr will be more fun. haha..come on man..orientation is supposed 2 be fun yea? typhoon meetin tmr for lunch at fc 5 at 230..hahaha..i finish at 130 la..owells. shall discover the school more. hahaha..exploring..

Sunday, April 09, 2006

yest tennis was gd..hahaha..nice playin again after SO LONG of slacking and not exercising..haha..lol. alas and farese came over yup. then after tt was freakin sian la..didnt know wad 2 do at all la..then was freakin starin at the com the rest of the day till dinner la..owells. after dinner went 2 my godparents place yup.

goin cycling later with alas, maine and jo at east coast yup. long time since we did tt alrd..miss those nice times we all spent tgt as a group..us guys, alas, eld and me..the girls..maine, jo, eliz and mel..yup. long time since we all went out tgt alrd..since last yr's celebration of maine and jo's bday yea?

school's finally gonna start tmr!! orientation la..can be considered as school start alrd la..hahaha..actual lessons starts on the 17th..way b4 the other poly's start school..owells. at least got stuff to do alrd..better than just doin nth and wasting my time..haha..mygosh..gotta do the stupid maths thingy la..there are like 6 lessons..i only completed 1 la..sigh. damn lazy 2 do lor. owells..need someone to help me in it man..there's a test oso la..either 1st or 2nd week..sian.

hey typhoons..wed after flag day go out? celebrate kelvin's bday? better meet up if not later school start alrd no time then ya..see u guys in school tmr yea? =)

Friday, April 07, 2006

hmmm ok..i didnt go for the camp in the end..hahahaha..owells. yup. mygosh..today is so damn sian sia..afternoon met dionna to get her amaths book..stupid maths thingy i gotta do coz i didnt take a maths for o's..wth. so yea..got the book alrd..then was suppose 2 go parkway 2 meet wen for pool..but somehow it didnt happen and i went home..hahaha..

yest the dinner was niceee..hahaha..at first all of us tot it was goin to be only us typhoons la..in the end gp's and gl's oso came..hahaha..yupyup. then took photos and stuff la yup. seoul garden at taka..i bet we made everyone else who were eatin damn angry la..coz we were damn noisy and stuff..hahaha..wad 2 do..hahaha..oh yes..daddy zhe han..got a damn cool belt for his birthday la..got words movin on it..hahaha..no wonder each of us had to chip in $5 for it...hahaha..then after dinner..we were all plannin to go out la..the 6 of us..me, kelvin, beng, yan mei, dionna and linyun..but didnt go out..ahahaah..kinda late alrd..didnt know wad we wanted to do oso..hahaha..owells. nxt time then we all take neos. HAHAHAHA. lol.

hmmm..alas, darius and farese comin over for tennis yup. long time nv play alrd la..dun even know whether i still can hit the ball over the net la..hahaha..owells. super unfir now..i better work out soon if i wanna join either dragonboat or canoe polo in sp..haha..but then again..i might just join cscc..hahaha..dunno la..shall see to tt in a few weeks time when cca fair happens yup.

3 days till orientation..YAY!!

~~could u be the one i've been looking for?~~

Thursday, April 06, 2006

hmmm..the last few days dam sian sia..nth much 2 do..hahaha..owells. later gonna have a typhoon outing yup. haha..celebratin daddy's bday..hahahaha..steamboat @ marina yup. but not everyone goin la yup. coz most of the others are in camps..hahaha..nvm la..we gonna have the cscc bbq on the 22th @ east coast then we all can meet up again..yupyup. then we can all talk cock..cock cock cock cock..HAHAHAHA..wth.

goin for the de camp tmr..7th till the 9th..st john's island..then gonna meet tmr at 8 at marina bay again la..hahaha..later goin there..tmr gotta be there again..madness. owells. so ya..dun msg or call me until the 9th again yup.

come to think of it..after i come back from camp on sunday..gonna have school's orientation alrd..then the week after tt school start alrd..so fast..but its like finally la..hahaha..after SO MANY months of slackin ard..doin nth..and workin @ usm of coz..which had so many nice memories..school is finally goin to start. yay. =)

hahaha..just got a msg from mummy..tellin us tt the place we meetin change to taka instead coz its raining now yup. gonna eat at seoul garden instead yup. hahaha..then dionna oso just called me tellin me tt she not goin camp tmr..my gosh..so i dunno whether i shld still go oso..coz im like hearin tt st john's not v clean oso so ya..dunno la..see how la..owells.

Tuesday, April 04, 2006

TYPHOON!! WHOOO!!

came back from f.o. camp yest. IT WAS SUPER FUN!! haha..met lots of new frens as well..=) long time since i had a really fun camp..=) first day met in school @ 9..i was there like 815..freakin early..owells. then had some ice breakers..then we were split into our diff groups. TYPHOON..we all started to know each other..then started doin our flag. not bad la our flag. haha..quite nice. then we had more games and stuff..then after tt took bus to pa..tt place @ nite quite freaky..haha..owells..nite walk was wth la..damn dirty la..second day had more games and activities..kinda forgot wad we did oso..hahaha..nite walk i think..yup. quite scary ah..but it was fun..third day..games again..@ nite had 'campfire'..i damn sad la..made to dress up as a shim..owells..yan mei and dionna dressed me up. haha..not bad la..i was quite 'pretty' la..wth. had lots of fun la yup. then after campfire..had PARTY!! we were all in one room..dancin ard..just like @ a club like tt. damn nice. party ended at 5 pls..then we all went 2 shower..freakin singin cheers oso la..hahaha..wth. then we all decided not to slp after knowin tt we didnt have to do the performance alrd..haha..then we were playin ard..talkin..crappin and stuff..then some gp's and gl's oso joined us..haha..truth or dare..hahaha..then at ard 8 plus..i went 2 bunk to slp awhile la..slpt for abt 1 hr..better than nth yup. then had breakfast..watched gl's do a performance..damn nice and funny..hahaha..then had photo takin and stuff..then break camp..then most of us went for latte session @ clementi..hahaha..nice group outing la..yup. ate..talked..joked and stuff..haha..will really miss the times spent in the camp..

LETS BRING TYPHOON TO THE WAR FRONT

BOOM BA BOOM BA BA (x2)

WHO YA GONNA BE YA?

TYPHOON WARRIOR!

WHAT CHA GONNA BE AH?

NUMBER ONE!

WHOGA!

AH! (X2)

WHOGA WHOGA!!

AH AH!

WHOOOOO..

TYPHOON!!

Wednesday, March 29, 2006

just came back from the clas chalet we had @ downtown east yup. kinda slpy la..didnt slp @ all last nite la..though i tried slpin..but the xbox was too tempting..ahaha..had drinks, bbq, pool..lots of it..hahaha..but it felt kinda sian la..dunno y..yup. damn funny..durin the bbq..we had a 'ritual'..burn the clown..ahahaha..lol. damn cool la..shall post the pic at the end of the post..but it might not be so clear..so yea. friday gonna have CAMP!!!!

IM SO LOOKING FORWARD TO IT!!!

FRIDAY HURRY COME!!

I WANNA HAVE FUN AGAIN IN CAMPS!! hahaha..lol.

Sunday, March 26, 2006

i got a new laptop! hahaha..usin it to blog now actually. hahahaha..dun bother askin me the specs..coz i dunno..i got a com to use can alrd..hahaha..lol. friday had the sp enrolment..so went 2 school la yup. hahaha..i got my admin card alrd! hahaha..lol. im now officially a student of sp. hahaha..then after the enrolment was some freshman thingy. SPSU. tts wad its called. singapore poly students union yup. haha..i oso signed up for 2 camps..1 of it is startin next friday..dunno wad is it called..but its organised by 1 of the clubs called CSCC..yup. the other camp is the school of DE camp. yup. 7th - 9th apr..yup. then the day after the enrolment..had the qst camp briefing in school..@ first tot i was only from 10-11..in the end ended ard 12 plus coz we played ice breaker games and stuff yup. then knew a few new ppl oso yup. hmmm..for the 1st time..im actually lookin forward to the camps and for school to start oso..hahaha//

Tuesday, March 21, 2006

hmmmm..lets see..went to book class chalet yest @ downtown east with wen, julian, darius, shakti and syafiq..met shakti b4 tt to play pool yup. then met wen and darius @ bedok..then mrted down to pasir ris..booked the chalet..had dinner then slacked ard @ downtown..played arcade and pool again..haha..somehow didnt have the mood to play. so yea. class chalet on monday 27th till wed yup. then roday..had my poly check up. I WAITED FREAKING LONG!!! i was there @ 915..i only finished at 3! i even had time to go home and have lunch. wth. owells. think its kinda useless la..nth wrong with me still gotta go check up. mygosh. owells.

Thursday, March 16, 2006

-im sry for pulling the string too tight. i will give it more slack so tt the kite can fly higher..but im scared. im afraid tt if i give it too much slack..it will fly away..and never come back bcoz the wind will bring the kite further away until it cant be seen anymore.

i miss u..

Sunday, March 12, 2006

why have things becomed like this? we're talkin lesser and lesser to each other..ever since the posting results were out. sigh. all i wish is for things to go back to the same as before..where we talked to each other everyday..thru msges and talkin thru the phone..i miss those times where we can just talk and crap ard..i miss u lots too..i want the old jess-amin back..the cheerful and fun loving one..

Wednesday, March 08, 2006

Lee Ryan - Army of lovers

There's an army of lovers dying to meet you

Dying to make your aquaintance

It could be you or it could be me So dont let go

Because I need you so.

Im yours, and you are mine

There's something about you baby

I want to hold you tonight

Accident happen strangest of places

How come the happen at all

Look for the turning for something or nothing

I wont let go

Because I need you so.

Im yours and you are mine

There's something about you baby

I want to hold you tonight

Every time I see you, you complete my life

Got to find an answer stay with me tonight

Stay with me, oh baby wont you stay with me

Stay with me

There's an army of lovers dying to meet you

Dying to make your acquaintance.

hmmm..its been awhile since we last went out alrd yea? sigh. hmmm..next time la..i shall ask in advance..and not on the day itself yup. haha..the more i look at pictures the 2 of us are in..the longer i wanna look at it..and never stop lookin at it. i miss you so so much..

Monday, March 06, 2006

My Feelings for you.........

-Let me not love you, for the rest of your life, but, for the rest of mine.

- When you're not here, something's missing.. my smile.

- I know I wont live 4eva.. but 4eva I'll be loving u...

- If you think my eyes are beautiful, it's because they are looking at you..

- Eight Letters, Three Words, Two People, One Meaning.......... I LOVE YOU

Love is the way you make someone feel,

The way someone makes you feel.

Love is the sharing and the caring,

The want and the need.

Love is not just a word,

Love is a power with unknown strengths.

It has the power to make someone smile,

To make someone laugh..

To make someone love u in return.

Love is what your heart feels,

What your heart says,

Ignore your heart and it will fade away,

Listen to your heart..follow your heart.

Let it sing, Let it run free,

and it can bring you anything.

Love is a bond,

A way to keep people together.

In Love, everything is wonderful! =)))

Saturday, March 04, 2006

posted to sp. civil engineering yup. hmmm..nothin much to blog abt actually. or rather..no mood to blog yup. if u still havent known. ive stopped workin @ usm alrd. not goin back there to work anymore yup.

this time im serious abt it.

not hearing from u for 1 day makes me weak..

sigh.

Tuesday, February 28, 2006

im disappointed with myself for wad i did last nite. im really really sorry. guess i did it bcoz im afraid tt i would lose u.. im afraid tt after poly starts, we would go our separate ways coz we might get busy with school and stuff..and then might not even have time to msg each other. sigh. im really sorry. still frens with this foolish and stupid guy i hope?

~~too embaressed to meet at u later.~~

~~guess i even feel tt i dun deserve u. im not gd enough for u.~~

Sunday, February 26, 2006

why are u like this?

its making me worried abt u.

it hurts to see u like this.

Tuesday, February 21, 2006

hmmm..bloggin coz someone asked me to. =P lets see..today i went back 2 work at usm..again..haha..hmmm. when i walked in..it somehow seemed kinda dull..found out later tt everyone kana scolded by see wee coz the mens wasnt replenished properly. hmmm. owells. i lucky la..when i came..see wee left. so yea. lucky me..hmmm. then the rest of the day was kinda alrite and sian. but i gotta admit. i was super blur today la. hahaha. owells. shakti and the other guy..forgot his name..came to find me at the shop today yup. hmmm. after tt went home myself yup. hmm. off tmr yup.

Friday, February 17, 2006

hmmm..met up with wen for pool at parkway just now. he oso had to collect his racket so yea. then met glenn after tt to go east coast lagoon for dinner. longggg time nv eat there alrd. hahaha. then after tt walked to marine cove to meet julian, sl, edward, brendon, js and mark foo. but i left after awhile so yea. yup. nth much happen other than these yup. hmmm. was suppose to meet jess for movie and dinner today. but she had tummy upset the whole day so didnt meet in the end yup. hope ur alrite alrd ya?

Thursday, February 16, 2006

hmmm. im goin back to usm to work again. haha..coz its like i've nth 2 do until poly starts so might as well go back and work yup. hmmm. received my v day gift yest..all i can say is tt i has put a smile on my face. the amount of effort u put into it just showed how much i mean to u. =) but lookin at wad i got for u..and wad u got me..it makes me feel bad. sigh. make up for it nxt time ok? haha.. =)

Monday, February 13, 2006

sighs. disappointed with myself for not even gettin at least 1 distinction. sighs. L1R4 21 points. where can i go? civil engineering. maybe i shld do tt. u'll nv know wad gd can come out of it after tt. for all u know..i might even like it. hmmm. ok. yest was my last day at usm. not workin anymore. yup. guess i will miss workin there yup. owells. will go back visiting there once in awhile. just as long as she's workin there. heh.

Thursday, February 09, 2006

ITS TMR!!! MY GOSH!! so fast. when u want it to be fast..it comes slow. when its reachin alrd..it seems so fast. sighs. tmr 230 in school to collect results. die la. damn scared alrd. owells. wads done is done. we must accept wadever we get from it. yes.

i cld see tt u were sad just now after i left. it hurts me to see u like this. i promise that i will try to not let it affect us.

Craig David - Unbelieveable

Always said I would know where to find love,

Always thought I'd be ready and strong enough,

But some times I just felt I could give up.

But you came and changed my whole world now,

I'm somewhere I've never been before.

Now I see, what love means.

[Chorus]

It's so unbelievable,

And I don't want to let it go,

Something so beautiful,

Flowing down like a waterfall.

I feel like you've always been,

Forever a part of me.

And it's so unbelievable to finally be in love,

Somewhere I'd never thought I'd be.

In my heart, in my head, it's so clear now,

Hold my hand you've got nothing to fear now,

I was lost and you've rescued me some how.

I'm alive, I'm in love you complete me,

And I've never been here before.

Now I see, what love means.

[Chorus]

When I think of what I have, and this chance I nearly lost,

I cant help but break down, and cry.

Ohh yeah, break down and cry.

[Chorus]

Now I see, what love means

Wednesday, February 08, 2006

hmmm. work as usual today. but was let off earlier. supposed 2 work till 7..but see wee let me and jess off at 6. haha. coz there was nobody at all at the shop la. hahaha. owells. so we let usm early and went to eat. ate at kenny rogers!! someone at first say dun wanna eat the corn muffin coz she didnt like corn in the end still ate the muffin finish. hahaha.. i wonder WHO? ahahaha. =P after tt went back usm for awhile then went to find wena at marina yup. the shop looks NICE. hahaha..but v easy to steal from there la..alot of blind corners. owells. they were all busy preparin inside the shop yupyup. talked 2 wena for a lil while then we contd walkin again. walked to city hall..then the nice person walked me to the bus stop la..feel damn bad tt she did tt la. hmmm. owells. workin at 3 tmr yup. OH YA!!! results out this friday!!! my gosh. like finally la. hahaha. really hope i can do well in it la. yupyup. INTERIOR ARCHECTITURE AND DESIGN!!! heh.

~~will u be joining me in tp?~~

Tuesday, February 07, 2006

hmmm..yest was wena's last day @ usm..so we all went for dinner after work..although i had off. haha..met jess b4 tt. supposed 2 meet @ 6 but she last min had smt on..so met alas first to play pool for awhile @ parkway..then went to marina to meet jess at 7. watched fun with dick and jane. alrite show la. a lil funny. quite alrite la. but not the best so yea. so after movie went back 2 usm. as usual..photo taking and everythin. haiz. then took cab down to marina south to eat steamboat..kinda seemed like seoul garden la..hahahaha..so ate..see wee was as usual takin video and stuff..ate ate ate. wena best la..kept cookin and cookin la. sian. we all were like full and she still contd cookin even more. ahahaha. after tt took more pics then we all left yup. cab back home with wena and ling. yup. workin later at 6. yup. someone very jealous tt i start @ tt time la. hahaha. =P

Saturday, February 04, 2006

my most favourite gift ever. =)

Friday, February 03, 2006

being with YOU..makes me complete.

YOU are everythin i will ever need. now and forever.

guess i cant live without YOU in my life.

YOU are my everything.

ben-ica and jess-amin will live happily ever after. =)

Thursday, February 02, 2006

SURPRISE!!!

hahaha..wad can i say..im the greatest la..hahaha..everyone knew i was goin back 2 usm except u. sry la ok..heh. hahahahaha. =p yup. if u still dunno..im back workin @ u2 suntec. for another 2 weeks until the 12th yup. hahaha..went back yest..then someone was like blur..she tot she was still dreaming..hahaha..u weren't dreaming ya.. =)

ok..so i went back 2 work @ usm yest..everythin was still the same when i left a few days ago..haha..dunno whether to consider it as left though. hahaha..

after work went to eat with my dear jess-amin..heh. walked ard doin nth for almost an hour coz we were not sure wad to eat..hahahaha..in the end ate @ seoul garden yup. superrrr long time nv eat tt alrd..hahahahaha..hmmm. yup.

really happy im back with u. being with u makes my day. =)

Sunday, January 29, 2006

HAPPY CHI NEW YR..went for breakfast @ my uncle's place as usual like every yr..then took pics as usual. then left for grand uncle's place. then had lunch @ macs again. practically did almost the same things like last yr. hahaha..then came back home 2 use com..then vernon kor kor and serene zhe zhe came over to bai nian to my parents. yup. then mums fren came over soon after for steamboat like wad we do every yr again. and soon after grandmother and aunty came over. yup. hmmm. then they all just left yup.

tmr goin 2 bai nian 2 my mum's side fam. hmmm. gotta go bathe alrd. yup.

i imagined u havin dinner tgt with us. it seemed so real. guess tt will happen in the future yea? =)

Saturday, January 28, 2006

sigh. i really hope i made the right decision for us. yest was my last day at usm. left it with mixed feelings. everyone was tryin to get me to stay on. sigh. i really wanna stay on. but its a decision i decided some time ago and im not a person to go against it. since i decided tt im not gonna contd..i have my reasons so ya. i really hope u can understand. i felt really sad last nite after leavin u coz i didnt want to make u sad over my decision. sigh. its makin me feel really bad now. just went ur blog. was happy and shocked at the same time. happy coz it showed me how much i mean to u. shocked bcoz i didnt expect u to go to tt extend..after walkin off..i had a feelin tt u were somehow behind me..but didnt think much bout it. sigh. guess i dun deserve it. ~~maybe even dun deserve to have u.~~ sighs. its a sad day for me. i just hope tt this decision doesnt change anythin.

i guess wad i say now will not make u feel better or anythin.

im just really really sorry.

Friday, January 27, 2006

THANX MY DEAR JESS-AMIN!!!

she helped me change my template..

although someone fell sick and i felt lonely at the shopfloor today. =(

she just made my day and im v happy coz she did such a gd job in creatin a new template for me.

thank you. =)

lookin forward to tmr..

Friday, January 20, 2006

hmmm. went to tp and sp open house with jess aka jess-amin..and oh. btw. i got a new name given to me from my colleagues at u2. its called ben-ica. haha. =) we met @ ard 1215 yupyup at tampines. then went to the tp open house. hmmm. looks like i found wad im gonna join alrd. interior architecture & design. yes. im gonna do design at tp. anyone wanna join me?

haha. so we walked ard tgt..saw a few old barker ppl. then walked 2 the business school. walked ard. then while walkin out of the business school..saw pauu. yup. then after tt we left to go sp. it was kinda waste time at sp la. nth much to see. we reached there at like 3 and we left at 340. hahahaha..then left for ps. watched cheaper by the dozen 2. its super funny la..hahaha..quite a nice show yupyup. after the movie. walked jess-amin to the bus stop yup. then once she got on the bus. i headed back home. and now im here. haha.

had a really nice day today ya. =) hope u did too.

she's just the girl im looking for..

Thursday, January 12, 2006

Just The Girl - The Click Five

She's cold and she's cruel

But she knows what she's doin'

She pushed me in the pool

At our last school reunion

She laughs at my dreams

But I dream about her laughter

Strange as it seems

She's the one I'm after

[Chorus:]

Cause she's bittersweet

She knocks me off of my feet

And I can't help myself

I don't want anyone else

She's a mystery

She's too much for me

But I keep comin' back for more

She's just the girl I'm lookin' for

She can't keep a secret

For more than an hour

She runs on 100 proof attitude power

And the more she ignores me

The more I adore her

What can I do?

I'd do anything for her

Cause she's bittersweet

She knocks me off of my feet

And I can't help myself

I don't want anyone else

She's a mystery

She's too much for me

But I keep comin' back for more

She's just the girl I'm lookin' for

And when she sees it's me

On her caller ID

She won't pick up the phone

She'd rather be alone

But I can't give up just yet

Cause every word she's ever said

Is still ringin' in my head

Still ringin' in my head

She's cold and she's cruel

But she knows what she's doin'

Knows just what to say

So my whole day is ruined

Cause she's bittersweet

She knocks me off of my feet

And I can't help myself

I don't want anyone else

She's a mystery

She's too much for me

But I keep comin' back for more

Cause she's bittersweet

She knocks me off of my feet

And I can't help myself

I don't want anyone else

She's a mystery

She's too much for me

But I keep comin' back for more

Oh, I keep comin' back for more

She's just the girl I'm lookin' for

Just the girl I'm lookin' for

I'm lookin' for

Just the girl I'm lookin' for

Monday, December 26, 2005

sighs. xmas eve and xmas day gotta work.

sigh. new yr's eve oso.

sian la..owells.

im gettin tired of workin la..sigh.

nvm. shall control it la..i wanted to work. shall work till the end.

heh.

Sunday, December 11, 2005

after so long of searchin..i finally found a job at u2 in suntec yupyup. but im workin alone. weiwen not gonna work with me. sian. hahaha..nvm la. gonna start work on monday..which is tmr!!!! omgosh la. hahaha..

Wednesday, November 23, 2005

ITS FINALLY OVER!! OH YEAH! =)

after the sci paper..went 2 hilton straight coz we booked a hotel there so yea..dyed hair..golden brown at the back and light brown at the front..so yea. then prepared and stuff..went for grad nite downstairs. took lots of pics. the food quite sucky though..the games. even worst..no comment. took more pics with teachers..class. yea. then after tt went indochine for drinks. yup. damn nice! i want more!! =)) went for pool after tt @ pot black..then went back hotel for more drinks and watched soccer coz steven wanted 2 watch..xl, glenn, edward and weiwen were there so yea. cldnt slp at all la..so didnt slp last nite. then had breakfast at macs..then went back 2 hotel to slp. coz we didnt know wad 2 do. lol.

now..im back home. all i have to say is..i will miss barker life. and i want more drinks. lol. =P

Wednesday, November 16, 2005

oh yea..just a few more days and its all over! =)

Friday, October 21, 2005

i will do my best to get you now..

i will not let this oppotunity slip.

u said i can try.

tts wad im just gonna do.

Tuesday, October 18, 2005

went to esplanade library to study today.with alas, eld and wen..while waitin for the library to open..saw farese..he was goin 2 the library to study oso..mok was joinin him later..took a few pics..haha..then went 2 subway for lunch at raffles city..then went 2 parkway for pool after tt..now im back here. yup. gonna study soon alrd. yup.

i tried to not like u any more..but i just cant help it.

can i hav tt chance?

~~weit...~~

Sunday, October 16, 2005

life in barker has ended..

no more lessons..

no more time wastin in class..

no more crap stuff we did..

owells.

i'll miss barker life.

for now..o levels..

sci prac on thurs..20 oct

chi o's..31 oct

the rest of the papers..7, 8, 9, 11, 21 and 22 nov

I MUST GET MY 11 POINTS!

Wednesday, October 12, 2005

this is the last week of school before our study break..sighs. its gettin nearer and nearer..owells. gotta study very hard the next 3 weeks alrd. yupyup. 11 points here i come!! haha..

Friday, October 07, 2005

ok..guess it will never happen..

owells.

but at the same time..somethin else has happened..

dunno is it for the good or bad..

owells.

sighs.

Tuesday, October 04, 2005

wad a day..was involved in the commonwealth games baton passing thingy with terry..had some acjc talk b4 tt..then left halfway thru..then went 2 scgs to receive the baton..reached there SUPER early..then went 2 get a drink in their canteen..then mr faizal had 2 sit in the middle of the canteen..wth la..then everyone was like staring at 2 guys wearing super short running shorts..haha..then when the baton came..we were still in the canteen and mr faizal just went into the toilet la..then when we went 2 the porch to receive the baton..we were still early..then all the people started taking photographs and stuff..the sc runners and us took photographs oso..haha..~~laura~~..hmmm..then coz we were still early..took more photographs in the concourse (i think tts wad its called)..then the sc ppl started to cheer..then terry got the baton then we left sc to go back school..super fun la on the whole..I WANNA DO IT AGAIN!! haha..but able to be involved in it very lucky alrd..ahaha..yup. then after tt passed the baton to the pri ppl..then took more pics at the clock tower again..yup.

after tt went back 2 class..got back report book..now the finalised score..

L1R4 15

L1R5 25

Saturday, October 01, 2005

FINALLY GOT A NEW PHONE!!!

motorola E398.

Friday, September 30, 2005

i guess is no point in going after you anymore.

i give up. u win.

~~weiting~~

Monday, September 26, 2005

CARLS JUNIORS!!!!

oh yea..damn nice..but its a lil ex though..

BUT NICE!!!

ahaha..

wasted time in school today. didnt do much. gonna finish school @ 1050 everyday until 3 weeks later. yupyup. then the next 3 weeks gonna hav study leave till start of o's.

time flies so fast.

when u want it to go by slowly..it passes so damn fast. owells.

i guess i still like u..i know i told u i wont think bout it or disturb u anymore..

i juz cant let it go.

That Chance

You and I live in different worlds

Never did I expect to know you

On the day we met

Which I did not feel like going at first

Because of someone, but I went

But during the events

I noticed you from far

not knowing why and how

thinking that you may be someone special

and life might be different with you

Chorus

All I wish is to have one chance

to know you better

and maybe become close friends

then look at how things are from there

All I wish is to have that chance

Now that I know you

You seem so distant

and have your piorities in life

which I guess I'll never be a part of it

or even close to it

Chorus

Friday, September 23, 2005

6 weeks left to o's.

damn fast.

the yr has past so fast.

felt so short only. sighs.

I MUST get my L1R4 11 points.

I MUST!

Sunday, September 11, 2005

yay. my com's finally ok..haha..kinda lots happened in this 1 month..er..prelims..my BDAY..haha..cant rmb the rest. lol. gonna get back prelim results tmr..shit. damn worried. gotta hand in dnt tmr. FINALLY!! after 1 whole yr..owells. had a great time on my bday. although had chi paper in the morn. played a lil tennis, pool and bowled on tt day thanx 2 eld. yup. maine, jo, alas and eld bought me a guess wallet..yupyup. like it lots. nth much 2 blog bout alrd..haha. just hope i didnt screw up my prelims.

Monday, August 15, 2005

sighs. my screwed up com screwed up again..the internet this time..sighs. at eld's house now..yupyup. havent checked all my stuff in a LONG LONG time. so many things hav happened..owells. havin prelims now..yup. didnt think i'll be goin online often even if my net was alrite..yea. guess im kinda studyin hard to do well..tryin. yup. owells. wait till my internet's alrite..then i'll blog again.

Monday, July 25, 2005

hmmm..life seems to get more boring and more boring.

sighs. owells.

wad do i need to get it back to normal?

someone to help me liven it up maybe?

or how bout something exciting gets into my life?

hmmm.

i would prefer the first one. haha. lol.

ah. wth.

Dashboard Confessionals - As Lovers Go

she said "i've gotta be honest,

you're wasteing your time if you're fishing round here."

and i said "you must be mistaken,

cause i'm not fooling...this feeling is real"

she said "you gotta be crazy,

What do you take me for? Some kind of easy mark?"

No, you've got wits, you've got looks,

you've got passion, but I swear that you've got me all wrong."

all wrong.

but you got me...

i'll be true, i'll be useful...

i'll be cavalier...i'll be yours my dear.

and i'll belong to you...

if you'll just let me through.

this is easy as lovers go,

so don't complicate it by hesitating.

and this is wonderful as loving goes,

this is tailor-made, whats the sense in waiting?

and i said "i've gotta be honest

i've been waiting for you all my life."

for so long i thought i was asylum bound,

but just seeing you makes me think twice.

and being with you here makes me sane,

i fear i'll go crazy if you leave my side.

you've got wits...you've got looks,

you've got passion but are you brave enough to leave with me tonight?

tonight.

but you've got me...

i'll be true, i'll be useful...

i'll be cavalier...i'll be yours my dear.

and i'll belong to you...

if you'll just let me through.

this is easy as lovers go,

so don't complicate it by hesitating.

and this is wonderful as loving goes,

this is tailor-made, whats the sense in waiting?

this is easy as lovers go,

so don't complicate it by hesitating.

and this is wonderful as loving goes,

this is tailor-made, whats the sense in waiting?

Sunday, July 24, 2005

sigh. prelims is in 2 weeks or less!! im so dead.

will i get my targeted L1R4 13 pts and L1R5 18 pts??

i hope i can..

Tuesday, July 19, 2005

my my..long time nv blog alrd. gonna watch the track finals tmr @ choa chu kang. yup. even though no one from br made it. so haha. did target setting 2day. aimed to get 18 points for L1R5 for prelims. its possible. if i strive to work hard for it. i will. i can do it. i must trust myself. planned to get B3 for eng, C5 for chi, B4 for science, A2 for com. humans., A2 for dnt and A2 for emaths. yup. i can do it.

my running attire for nationals. haha..i like. haha.

Friday, July 08, 2005

screwed up runs. 100m was screwed. when i wanted to max my speed..my legs didnt respond to it..like somethin didnt let me max my speed..then long jump..i had to jump it in the end..was so close to qualiflying..haha..lol. like 15cm more la..haha..and the thing is i nv train for it at all..haha..lol. then relay. sigh. i was the only one who didnt make a mistake..shali slip @ the start..when i was gonna pass 2 sidney..he start too slow..then when he gonna pass to peter..peter start too fast. wth. didnt qualify for semi's in the end. damn sad..27th position. haiz. sad. wad a sad yr. owells.

Tuesday, July 05, 2005

trng finished damn late 2day. 745..yup. did relay 2day. FINALLY! the formation is..shali, me, sid and peter. yup. felt kinda alrite receiving with left hand. better be la. its THIS FRI!! sighs. so fast.im gonna be so damn tired la. 100m in the morn..then long jump..then 4 by 1 in the afternoon. owells. shall foul my long jump. hehe..didnt even train at all for it. so ya. feelin kinda tired alrd. wanna slp alrd. legs are hurting. feel an injury coming to my right knee. shit. tts damn bad. owells. at least i saw the girl doin hurdles. hehe. =X

wouldnt it be nice if i could get msges of encouragement b4 i run on fri. hehe. *hint*

3 days to nationals.

everythin seems to be so odd.

maybe ur not the one.

i suppose so.

Wednesday, June 29, 2005

wad a sian day. had no school. but watched the notebook at home coz peter lent me the vcd. it was nice. damn nice. damn touching. really nice movie. really really nice. feel like watchin it again. haha.

damn sian bout dnt alrd. freakin waste time. put in so much effort. he say wth. i expected more. screw off la. im doin dnt for the a1..not to give u the recognition.

tmr goin back school. sian. damn lazy la.

natz is in 9 days for me. 100m. long jump. 4 by 1 relay.

i had a dream. dreamt that we were running in the 4 by 1 final. i was 2nd runner. in front of me was the whole of cedar. wth la..haha. dunno y the dream was like this oso. owells.

Monday, June 27, 2005

had extra trng 2day @ serangoon stadium after the 1st day of school. was damn sian. so went to the stadium with ferg and mark foo. once outside the stadium..i saw cedar ppl..i was like..sian. nvm. then some cj ppl were there alrd..then changed..haha..i went to the wrong side..last time the guys toilet was at the right side..but now change to left..then this cedar girl was givin me the 'wth r u doin here look' haha..then i went to the other side la. duh..haha..then did warm up..drills..then did a few starts with blocks..all tgt bout 10..40m..then did 40m starts on the curve..then did a 100m run on the curve..felt damn good for the 1st few starts on the straight. yup. damn nice feeling. trng started @ 3..ended @ 6..the longest trng i hav ever had i think. then took mrt back home with ferg.

had a dream tt the relay team made it to the finals..and i was the 2nd runner for the team. it was a damn nice feeling. i hope this dream can really come true.

i really really like u..

Sunday, June 26, 2005

sighs. goin back to school tmr alrd. damn. gotta do my dnt now. gonna hav lots of trngs the next 2 weeks. tmr @ serangoon stadium..tues, thurs and fri @ bishan. yup. natz in 2 weeks.

Saturday, June 25, 2005

ok..yest was kinda tirnin day..yupyup. had trng in the morn. did 4 40m sprint starts..then did 2 100m sprints..then did 1 200m tempo run. did all with peter. then thempo run with angie and peter. yup. i had a slight twitch on my old injury. shit. damn scared it comes back now..2 weeks b4 natz. sighs. better wear the strap when i run now. kinda fun runnin in the rain. haha. slightly heavier than a drizzle. yup. then went 2 macs to eat. then went 2 the airport coz eld came back from uk. met alas on the way there. then eld's dad sent me home. then later in the evenin when to town. met up with almost all the bb guys from my batch. yup. wayne, james, kenneth, morven..and even..j liew..hahaha. lol. went to play pool. then ate @ cafe cartel in cine. stayed till 1145..then went 2 my godparents place. then went to maxwel food court to eat porridge. haha. then came back home ard 2 plus. yup. then went to slp strg away. haha. nth much to blog bout alrd. kinda sian bloggin oso. dun think i'll be bloggin much anymore. gotta study and more trngs to go for. yup.

Wednesday, June 22, 2005

dunno wad i was thinkin abt yest. haiz..wads with me?? nvm.

wasted time in school 2day. haiz. only liked the time when we played tennis. haha. had maths. the freakin teacher not gd la. lower sec teacher. even ng hwee fern slightly better..hahaha. then recess played tennis..mr lau damn pissed..shouted from outside the class to the tennis courts..wth la. then went for physics prac..cldnt go in yet..coz we were all wet and stuff..haiz. then after tt went to play more tennis..then went opp school to cut hair..i like my hair!! hehe.. =P then after tt took bus home with alas and wen. yup. now im here. sighs. so sian. bored. dunno wad to do. haha. haiz.

shld i continue doin wad i wanna do or shld i stop before anythin worst happens??

sighs.

Tuesday, June 21, 2005

sometimes i really dunno wad im thinkin about. i juz saw the jesse mccartney mtv for she's no you..sometimes i juz wish tt when i walk past some place with this group of gd lookin girls..they will turn and look at me..y..why do i feel this way?? haha. weird. sigh.

wad if some day i became famous??

will i ever feel the same way im feeling rite now?

i dun think so..but i can get all the attention i want. sighs.

unlike now.

i sometimes really dunno wads goin thru my mind.

i guess i shld hav gotten over the past . i hope.

but as i try to start new with someone new..

its juz doesnt seem to work.

maybe its juz not time yet.

or even maybe its not the right person.

i know that i hav only got to know you for a very short time.

i juz hope now that we can really get to know each other better and become good frens.

juz be frens.

that is a i wish for now.

the bold words in the song juz keep passing thru my mind..

Jesse Mccartney - Why Don't You Kiss Her

We're the best of friends

And we share our secrets

She knows everything that is on my mind

But lately somethings changed

As I lie awake in my bed

A voice here inside my head

Softly says

Why don't you kiss her

Why don't you tell her

Why don't you let her see

The feelings that you hide

Cuz she'll never know

If you never show

The way u feel inside

Oh im so afraid to make that first move

Just a touch and we

Could cross the line

And everytime she's near

I wanna never let her go

Confess to her what my heart knows

Hold her close

Why don't you kiss her

Why don't you tell her

Why don't you let her see

The feelings that you hide

Cuz she'll never know

If you never show

The way u feel inside

What would she say

I wonder would she just turn away

Or would she promise me

That she's here to stay

It hurts me to wait

I keep asking myself

Why don't you kiss her

Why don't you tell her

Why don't you let her see

The feelings that you hide

Cuz she'll never know

If you never show

The way u feel inside

Why don't you kiss her (tell her you love her)

Why don't u tell her (tell her you need her)

Why don't you let her see

The feelings that you hide

Cuz she'll never know

If you never show

The way you feel inside...

Why don't you kiss her?

Sunday, June 19, 2005

oh my gosh. ive got no mood to do any work at all!! tts freakin bad!! i wanted to do my dnt..but i fel damn lazy to do it. why? sighs. i gotta wake up soon..the freakin prelims are in early aug after nat day!! sighs. i've gotta start doin my revisions!! i juz hope someone will come and remind me tt its impt to start doin it. sigh. i cant wake myself up. i always tell myself wad i wan to achieve..but..m i puttin in the effort to get it? sighs. i wanna go to tp's school of design and do interior design. but with the grades i hav now..can i get in?

i wanna make it to the natz semi's this yr..natz is juz 3 weeks away..m i puttin in enough effort to make it? no.

sighs.

nvm bout the natz semi's..its not v impt..but o's is. when will i realise tt its very impt and if i dun make it past this hurdle..i'll be no one..when will tt be? maybe when tt person whom i hav tt special feeling comes along and wakes me up from this slp..and remind me tt it is impt and keeps supportin me along the way?

maybe.

i hope tt it could be you. but will u take it? i dun think so.

Wednesday, June 15, 2005

sighs. wasted my time this morn. supposed 2 hav trng at ccab at 930. took mrt down to newton. came out of the station. it was rainin very heavily. sat at the bus stop for awhile to see whether the rain will get smaller. but it didnt. then went home after tt. wasted my time. cld have slpt longer la. haiz. feelin so slpy now. hehe. aiya..shall go play cm 5 now..hahaha.. =P

Tuesday, June 14, 2005

wasted my time goin to school 2day. went 2 "hand up" my folio..then go there..show him. he comment..then go off. wth. then he say so much la. say he expected me to do a lot better..haiz. pls la. i didnt know wad to do la. sigh. at least now i noe wad 2 do alrd la. yup. mark choo, max and charles were there oso. leonard damn funny. suppose 2 go for poa. but nv go. then he sit in the canteen dunno do wad. haha..then after eatin..came home. sighs. so borin. not in the mood to study at all. tts bad. damn bad.

shld i get to know her better?
maybe i shld.

Monday, June 13, 2005

wad a party yest..was kinda alrite la..but a lil borin in the end..ahahaha. =X met new and nice ppl there..like..er..hannah..aisha..and a few others la. yup. eliz, pauu, mel, elvis were there oso la..like duh la..haha. had drinks..was damn nice la..haha. I WANT MORE!!!!!!!!! haha. played dare and dare. i damn suay la..there were girls who got the bottle..but their dare had to hav a guy involved..then i suay la..get the bottle..hannah and weiting i think. yup. hannah was supposed 2 whisper somethin 2 me..then if i got wrong..got forfeit..i said wrongly..haiz. then in the end had 2 lick off choc fudge off her hand. haiz. then weiting. was made 2 kiss her neck. haiz. haha. the whole party was kinda alrite la..alas spent most of his time taking care of the kitten he gave mel as her prez. yup. left at ard 11pm. dad fetched me home.

then this morn had trng..felt tt i was ok after last nites drinks. then did warm up and drill..after tt..was supposed 2 do 4 sets of 3 40m sprints. 97-98%. so ya. 1st set did 2 100m and 2 40m..dunno y..haha. after tt..suddenly felt damn giddy and had a headache la. wth. then drank lots of water..after awhile was alrite alrd. so yup. then continued trng. owned peter..MUAHAHAHAHA. but he had a hip injury la..so. damn! haha. lol. then after tt went 2 macs..had a large normal coke..haha. with nothin else inside. damn. haha. nvm. then after tt walkin 2 the bus stop with gideon..then the bus was @ the traffic light and goin 2 the bus stop alrd. which was 150m away. then we both sprint like mad 2 get there la..hahaha..got on the bus in the end..haha. then @ the ccab bus stop..then cjc ppl were there..angie and her frens got on the bus. yup. then after tt went 2 raffles took 14 home. the freakin malay girls @ the back were damn noisy la. wth. then now im here. gotta do my dnt alrd. haiz.

Sunday, June 12, 2005

sighs. had my worst ever run tt day @ the mizuno wings..haiz. dun wanna blog bout it at all.

mel's bday 2day..HAPPY BDAY TO U!!! =) goin 2 her party later with alas..yup. shld be a real nice party yup.

Wednesday, June 08, 2005

wah..2days my most suay day!!! sigh. and wads with me and buses..haiz..1st..@ bugis..had trng..so ya..took bus down la..then saw eld there..wanted to take 170 to go ccab..ok..then freakin hell 5 960's passed by la..wth. then after the 5th one passed..170 then come..wth la..2nd time..after lunch @ macs with terry, peter and mark..went to the bus stop..wanted to take 171 then go raffles take 14 home..suddenly a 67 passed by..i could hav taken it la but damn long..so wait la..then 30 mins later 171 came..super pack..and it never stop at the bus stop. wth la. freakin hell make me wait so damn bloody long la. in the end still took 67 back..haiz. damn suay la 2day..haiz.

had trng this morn..went down..hmmm..its like natz juniors la..i go for 1 trng..then go comp alrd..haha..then tmr got wings..so ya. running 100m..relay not very sure la..nv train so long. so ya.had time trials..60m..finished 3rd..with 7.9s..tt bloody ashley won..peter got 2nd..beat me by 0.2s only..terry..dunno wad happ 2 him la..then after tt we did relay..did 3 times..was 3rd runner for the 1st 2 times..felt like i pushed like hell la..then last one..was 1st runner..damn tired for tt one la..yup. now my fitness damn low..haiz. nvm its ok..still got 1 month to natz..11 july..100m and long jump. yup. really hope i can make it to the semis..i noe it might be out of reach..but i will train like mad this whole month. i must make it to the semis//

Tuesday, June 07, 2005

long time since i blogged..went 4 camp..yup. had camp on fri..till yest..yup. paintball!!!! yeaa!!! headshot mr lai..haha..but he shot me in the leg..haha..mini aq..was station master..so kinda slack..=p slpt kinda alot of times..haha..like on the last day..slpt in the admin room when they were doin area cleanin..=P haha..kinda slack la the camp..every nite slpt @ ard 2am..yea..haha.. alrite la..then after camp..went 2 waffletown 2 eat..with dean, josh..and a few others la..cant really remem the rest..then went 2 my godparents place..left @ ard 11pm..

then 2day..went out with alas and eld..watched unleashed..@ bugis..yupyup. the movie was quite nice la ya..then went ard 2 look 4 mel's bday prez..yup. then went 2 town after the movie..bought mel's prez there..then walked ard cine coz didnt know wad 2 do..wanted 2 play arcade..but didnt..haha..then went down 2 subway..ate there..act outside the railings there..haha..then someone suddenly hit me wif a plastic bag..shaun tham..then ate finish alrd..then went home..eld and alas had 2 go 4 the mr and mrs smith preview there..so..sob..sighs..eld got 2 free tix la..so sian..alas helped him get somethin la..tts y he went..yupyup. act..wen asked me 2 go play tennis 2day @ mg..sry wen..

i guess the feelings are gone alrd..yup.

frens. only. nothin more.

Wednesday, June 01, 2005

haha..its the 1st 2day..hmmm. yup.

has nothin 2 do with me anymore.

wth.

y do i still think of it?

-shrugs-

Monday, May 30, 2005

hmmm..gonna do 100m and long jump for natz..hmmm..was damn surprised when i found out tt i was gonna do long jump..nv did long jump ever b4..yupyup. haiz..the track teacher said tt the coach said i cld do long jump..so..hmmm. rite. trngs gonna be every mon..tues and fri..930 to 1130..sighs..gotta go back school for dnt oso..sigh. how i wish there were juz a lil more time..haiz. or maybe even a longer day..more than 24hrs..more time 2 do everythin..yupyup. haha..

had chi o's 2day..juz hope i can get a c6 la..started studyin only bout 2 days ago..sick the previous few days..cldnt really study..so ya..shld i redo if i dun do well?? i dunno..shall see how..yup. the last few days ive been listenin alot 2 howie day's collide..i dunno y..until i kinda memorised the song alrd..hmmm..maybe IF i join sg idol..shall sing tt song..hahahaha..if i ever join..or maybe 40 kinds of sadness by ryan caprera..actually..got kinda a few songs i can sing la..ahahaha..LOL.

the next few days gotta go back 2 school..sighs..lessons..got dnt in the afternoon oso..sian..now my hols like no hols like that..lessons..trngs..dnt..sighs..

Sunday, May 29, 2005

seems like the past has won..it still lives in my mind..

everytime i try to forget..it won't leave..

wad m i to do?

y do i keep lookin at the pics and neos we took?

y i do i still think of u?

~~y do i miss u??~~

sighs.

o level chi tmr..hope can at least get a b4..i hope..haha..gonna hardcore now till tmr!!

hope i can dun ever think bout the past again.

Friday, May 27, 2005

im feeling so damn sick..

monday chi o's..how??haiz..

im screwed.

Wednesday, May 25, 2005

fuck

damn high fever..

39 degrees..

there goes my medals 4 games day tmr..

not goin school tmr oso.

sighs.

Tuesday, May 24, 2005

trng in the morn..ferg and mark went oso..did a few sprints..then after tt went 2 st wilfred's 2 play soccer with 4e1..we won 4-3..i scored 1..syafiq scored 2 and eddie the other one..then went 2 ps 2 eat @ mos..then went 2 play pool with eld and tim..then went 2 the scgs bazaar..complete waste of time..then came hm..super tired..throat feeling damn bad oso..gonna hav dinner alrd..

Friday, May 20, 2005

Time to grow - Lemar

Last night I tried but I couldn't sleep

Thoughts of you were in my head

I was lonely and I needed you next to me

Life is harder since you left

I never meant to do you wrong

And now all is said and done

I hope you won't be gone too long/ No

[Chorus]

Where do I go

What do I do

I can't deny I still feel something

And girl, I wish you could say you feel the same

You've broken the bond

I gotta move on

But how do I end this lonely feeling?

You've gone, I'm here, alone

I guess it's time to grow

I try to speak, but my words never catch the air

Like you never knew I was there

Take me back to the days when you really cared

Can we make love re-appear?

I can't go on the roads too long

And now all is said and done

I can't go forward if my heart's still where i'm coming from

[Chorus]

Crying time is over

I know I can't control her feelings

If she won't return, then I guess I'll be a man

and move on

Time to grow / And move on

Make life better than it was before

Time to grow and move on

Make love better than I did before [repeat]

Though you've gone / And I'm here, alone

I guess it's time to grow

damn slack 2day in school..only did a physics mindmap and dnt only..haha..played tennis with weiwen's federer racket..haha..made damn nice shots..=P feel damn gd usin his racket..hahaha..yup. then on the way home..this girl in yellow pointed to weiwen when he left..haha..yellow..haha..

Thursday, May 19, 2005

1 week more!!! games day..track meet..100m and 200m and 4 by 100m relay..

i wanna run run run run run run run run run run run run run run run!!!!!

sprint until i drop dead..hahaha.

sighs. im gonna lose damn badly. sadly.

haha.

i juz wan my medal yup. =P

Wednesday, May 18, 2005

there's this girl i once knew from my old estate..my sister's fren's sister..we have never talked 2 each other 4 who knows how long..shld be since i shifted out from the old estate..since pri 5..yup. so long ago..had damn fun times playin with her..yup. miss those days. we could juz play the whole day and not go home..haha..lol. had kinda gd impression of her then.

recently i saw their family again..didnt know it was them at first..saw her..found her kinda familiar..then saw her sister and father then was sure it was her alrd. yup. sighs. i wanna find her..though it has been so long..but somehow she still remained in me..even though i didnt even think of her till now..sighs. i've been tryin to find her. but sighs.

is wad im feeling now called love or is it juz a feeling that will be gone soon? sighs.

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guess the last few days have been kinda alrite to get thru..even after wad happened..have been gettin flashbacks..juz keep appearing for no reason..sighs. shldnt try 2 think of the past too much..but they will stay as some of the gd memories of a bull shit life of a loser..sighs. a loser who cant even do gd things to the girl he loved and make her feel loved. sighs. ahhh. 4get it la..shldnt think too much but juz get on with life. achieve the goals i wanna achieve. yup. only then might i feel satisfied with wad im doin in my life. sighs.

Saturday, May 14, 2005

010105 - 140505

0035 - 1320 hrs

its all over. the end.

~~beneliz~~

im only gonna leave when u tell me in the face.

i juz wanna hear it from u straight.

only then will i leave.

do i still mean anythin to u at all?

y make me feel like this?

juz tell it to me straight then.

it will all be so much more easier.

for u and for me.

and that other person.

Friday, May 13, 2005

this is it. it could all end in 1 hour time. sighs.

really dunno wads gonna happen at the end of it.

sighs.

im so fucking confused right now.

wad should i do?

wait? or leave?

~~maybe i should leave..~~

im juz feelin damn confused now.

~~fuck the world la.~~

Wednesday, May 11, 2005

ur exams hav finished..

but it seems all the same..

all still feel so distant..

when will i have you back into my arms?

i miss you like crazy.

i cant live a moment w/o thinkin of you.

i miss you very badly my lil piggy.

Tuesday, May 10, 2005

BEN AND JERRY'S ICE CREAM!!!!

i wan more!!!!!!!!

hehe..

probability!!!

so easy..i think..haha..=P

i miss u like crazy..

Monday, May 09, 2005

TENNIS!!!!

WOOHOO!!!!

IM IN A TENNIS MOOD!!!!

MUAHAHAHA!!

Saturday, May 07, 2005

im in a tennis mood!! haha..how cool is that..the last few weeks been playin tennis like mad durin recess, after school and free periods..haha..guess im gettin slightly better..yup. juz came hm from playin..guess wad..TENNIS..haha..went 2 rtc with alas..played with his dad and uncle. durin the warm up..all the shots i made..wah. haha. then played doubles..lost 1-6 4-6 though..but its alrite la..at least..I KNOW HOW TO SERVE PROPERLY ALRD!! hahahaha..lol. EGO BOOST!!! haha..rite.

i love u.

Wednesday, May 04, 2005

ur always on my mind..

thinking of you makes me different..

im never gonna leave ur side..

no matter what.

Tuesday, May 03, 2005

Untitled - Simple Plan

I open my eyes
I try to see but Im blinded by the white light
I cant remember how
I cant remember why
Im lying here tonight

And I cant stand the pain
And I cant make it go away
No I cant stand the pain

How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
Ive got no where to run
The night goes on
As Im fading away
Im sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

Everybodys screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
Im slipping off the edge
Im hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again

So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered
And I cant explain what happened
And I cant erase the things that Ive done
No I cant

How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
Ive got no where to run
The night goes on
As Im fading away
Im sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

I made my mistakes
Ive got no where to run
The night goes on
As Im fading away
Im sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

i feel so odd without you by my side.

its just not the same.

things seem so distant now. sighs.

i miss u so so much.

i wan u here in my arms.

Sunday, April 24, 2005

Nick Lachey - This I Swear

You're there by my side

In every way

I know that you would not forsake me

I give you my life

Would not think twice

Your love is all I need believe me

I may not say it quite as much as I should

When I say I love you darling that means for good

So open up your heart and let me in

And I will love you 'til forever

Until death do us part we'll be together

So take my hand and hold on tight

And we'll get there

This I swear

I'm wondering how I ever got by

Without you in my life to guide me

Where ever I go the one thing that's true

Is everything I do I do for you

I may not say it quite as much as I should

When I say I love you darling that means for good

So open up your heart and let me in

And I will love you 'til forever

Until death do us part we'll be together

So take my hand and hold on tight

And we'll get there

This I swear

So whenever you get there

Just reach out for me

I'll never let you down my love

And I will love you 'til forever

Until death do us part we'll be together

So take my hand and hold on tight

And we'll get there

This I swear

And I will love you 'til forever

Until death do us part we'll be together

So take my hand and hold on tight

And we'll get there

This I swear

Friday, April 22, 2005

hmmm..napfa juz finished..yup.

shuttle run : 9.43s
chin ups : 5
sit and reach : 32 (sighs.)
sit ups : 56
standing broad jump : 228 (hehehe..)
2.4 run : 10.58 (YAY!!)

yupyup. these r my scores..silver la..yup. good enough..ahaha..had 2.4 juz now..surprised i did so well..was happy if i got under 12 la..yup. damn happy with it. eld and alas after tt were mad la..tried to kill me coz i beat them both..hehe..last round was the maddest la..stride for 350m..then last 150m i sprint all the way..100% almost 110%..yup. happy with it la..yup. =)

Wednesday, April 20, 2005

hmmm..had house meetin 2day..there will be track events 4 the next games day..i ask mrs tan..she say got track coz some ppl say y no track meet..i think it was me la..so ya..haha..=P then as usual..mrs tan made me the track captain 4 oldham..coz y..im the only recognisable tracker in oldham..sighs. =P rite..got geoferry..but he's sec 3..so ya..me la..ben tan..oldham house track captain. =P..how i wish there was the badge 4 it..sighs. tt will be cool. hehe..then takin 100m and 200m..yup. doin 4 by 1 relay oso..yupyup. no confidence we can win though..no other fast runners in oldham. sighs. nvm la..at most i will run like mad and beat everyone else..hehe..=P rite..so -.-''' la..ahaha..goin gym liao..cya! =)

Tuesday, April 19, 2005

~~i dunno wads wrong with myself..sighs..do i even understand myself?? i dunno..~~

Monday, April 18, 2005

~~feeling down..i dunno why.~~

Sunday, April 17, 2005

hmmm..wad happ yest?? er..i was alone @ home almost the whole day..yup. wasted my time where i could hav done so much stuff..instead of juz usin the com and doin nothin..sighs..im so disappointed with myself..the chi o's r comin alrd and i still not really studyin seriously..when will i start to be serious..sighs..by the time i get serious..hopefully by june..i can seriously concentrate on my studies and stuff..yup. then 2day..looked thru a lil of the chi words..yup. i gotta do more of this..if not..there will be no hope for me..i noe i can do well 4 the o's..but will i be happy after i get my results? i dunno..sigh.

~~will u be there to pick me up when i fall??~~

Wednesday, April 13, 2005

hmmm ok..blogger ok alrd..yup. hmmm..nothin much 2 blog bout again..haha..act. dunno wad 2 blog about..haha..rite...hmmm..2day in school had health checkup..i still gotta wear my specs..(as if i wear them)..my colour vision..sighs..still the same..my backbone..a lil curve..but its alrite..yup. other than tt..nothin else la..after school went 2 sim lim with alas, eld, wen and syafiq..eld and wen bought stuff..yup. then after tt took mrt home..reached hm..realised i long time nv reach home early in a lonh time alrd..hahahaha..rite.

* you mean everything to me..

i love you.

Monday, April 11, 2005

hmmm..school was the same again..ahaha..dnt after school..pon trng 2 follow eld 2 some modeling company..haha..then followed him there 4 the interview..but he's not doin alrd..coz gotta pay 4 stuff and not cheap oso..so no point in doin it..yup. then came hm..now im here..nth much 2 blog bout again la..hahahaha..yupyup.

i keep feeling that somethin is wrong..is everything ok??

i love u my princess.

Saturday, April 09, 2005

yest in school..hmmm..i scored again durin recess..muahahaha..so tt means..7 goals in 3 days tt i played..muahahahaha..3 on tues..3 on wed..thurs i didnt play..then fri 1 durin recess..haha..im on hot scorin form!!!! haha..okok. had bb after dnt..damn crap la..went 2 play tennis 1st then mok and clarence came to tell us 2 go do drill..sian la..then took the sec 2's for drill..they damn crap la..then after parade went 2 waffletown 2 drink/eat choc chip ice cream in sprite..ahahaha..quite nice..yupyup. then dad and mum fetched me then went 2 pick up mich coz she went 4 some chalet..yup. then her fren followed us..went 2 macs 2 eat a lil..then sent her fren home..yup. nth much 2 blog bout alrd again.haha.. cya!

i love my princess!!

Thursday, April 07, 2005

hmmm..ok..had another sian day in school as usual..haha..then had trng after school..ok..im like the most unfit in the team now..sighs..damn bad la..*sob* did 2km run..then did 4 100m 80%..then 3 120m 90% and 1 400m run..yup. can die ah the 2km run..sighs..but the rest after tt was alrite though..haha. then followed ferg in the taxi until newton then took mrt 2 meet alas 2 go tuition..then went 2 parkway..followed wen 2 restring his racket..then while they were eatin ice cream..some guy came up 2 me and alas askin us 2 do a survey on online shopping and stuff..yup. then after they ate finish..alas and i went 2 tuition..then went in..doin the ws tt time..the 4 kc girls behind us damn freakin noisy la..wth. sighs. nvm. then did the work and after finish when 2 parkway 2 meet my fam. then walked ard then left..and now im here..feelin kinda tired now. yup. maybe gonna slp soon..see how. nth much 2 blog bout alrd..byebye.

Wednesday, April 06, 2005

ok..nothin much happ in school 2day..yup. except tt i scored another hattrick again 2day la..haha..thanx thanx..hahaha..the last 2 days juz cant stop but juz score goals and more goals..haha..thanx ppl..no need 2 clap ya..thanx thanx. rite..had some stupid hdb talk after school..was damn sian la..everyone was like slpin..haha..nvm..then after tt went 2 bugis 4 awhile then came home..yup. nothin much i wanna blog about alrd..juz dun wanna blog bout it only..haha..so yup.

its all about you

Tuesday, April 05, 2005

hmmm..had extended day 2day..damn sian la..did english compre until 3 plus..then went 4 the rugby match thingy..reached farrer park field..i was thinkin..if in sec 2 i joined rubgy..i cld hav been there la..haha..dunno y i tot of tt oso..ahaha. nvm..then there were ri and sas ppl oso..yup. then the ac br and ac i match gonna start soon..it started 2 rain damn heavily la..sighs. used my umbrella oso no use..got all wet..completely..sighs. ran 2 some nearby shop houses..then left 2 go bugis after tt..saw carol @ bugis coz she was workin there..ahaha..then walked ard..then on the way home..on the bus 12..there was this couple..wah..haiyo..dun wanna look..but somehow still look..sighs..dun wanna talk bout it..ahaha..gtg alrd. byebye.

Monday, April 04, 2005

sighs..somethin wrong with my com again..dunno y..think got some virus again..sighs..y so unlucky one..haiz. bloody hell..

Sunday, April 03, 2005

hmmm..so bored at home now..all alone..sighs..nvm.

yest..went town 4 awhile to meet eliz, mel and pauu..had lunch..then left 4 gombak stadium @ ard 1.30..yup. the freaking ride took so damn long la..haiz..1hr to reach there..sighs. once i got 2 the stadium..got kinda freaked out alrd..but then juz did all the normal stuff la..warmed up alone..then stride..then slack awhile..went and do more strides..then reported in..was talkin 2 the tanglin sec guy..u know wad..he's b day 1 day after mine la..wth..ahaha..then *BANG! my race stated..had quite a gd start..think i was 3rd of the blocks..but after tt..everyone started running past me..sighs..in the end..i beat this NJC guy..haha..THANX THANX!! haha..felt it was an ok run la..yup. they said i had 2 hav more armswing..so ya..nxt time..yup. then stayed 2 watch shali and ferg run..then @ tt time was like 7 plus alrd..then rushed down 2 my godparents place 4 dinner..then stayed there till 12 plus..was super tired after tt..came hm and slpt straight away..

now so damn sian alone @ hm..sighs. bored. suppose 2 do my hmwk now..too lazy 2 do..sigh.

i miss u so much!!

Friday, April 01, 2005

hehe..2days the 1st.. =) still remember how i was 3 months ago..haha..dunno how 2 describe it la..yup. im juz really happy la..yup. =)

happy 3rd month my dear..i love you..

Thursday, March 31, 2005

hmmm..juz had dinner..came from trng juz now. yup. stayed in school 4 study group..then went 4 trng..i was late..again..sighs..then i rushed to do my warm up and drills. yup. then did 12 starts..3 with blocks..felt kinda gd bout it yup. then did 300m all out. damn tiring la..did it in 47s i think..haha..then after tt did 3 80m strides..yup. felt alrite..think im ready 4 sat yup. my dad was there 2 pick me up..didnt know until i ran finish my 300m run yup. then went 2 buy drinks..then came home..feeling kinda alrite now i guess..legs a lil tired..but its ok..yup.

tmr's the 1st..hehe.. =)

sian la..havin free periods now..sighs..damn sian..............................

Tuesday, March 29, 2005

so many things i wanna do..

but i cant..

something is always holdin me back to do it..

why..why cant i do it?

i dun wanna feel this way..

i love you.

Monday, March 28, 2005

True - Ryan Cabrera

I won't talk

I won't breathe

I won't move till you finally see

That you belong with me

You might think

I don't look

But deep inside in the corner of my mind

I'm attached to you

I'm weak

It's true

Cause I'm afraid to know the answer

Do you want me too?

Cause my heart keeps falling faster

I've waited all my life

To cross this line

To the only thing that's true

So I will not hide

It's time to try anything to be with you

All my life I've waited

This is true

You don't know

What you do

Everytime you walk into the room

I'm afraid to move

I'm weak

It's true

I'm just scared to know the ending

Do you see me too?

Do you even know you met me?

I've waited all my life

To cross this line

To the only thing that's true

So I will not hide

It's time to try, anything to be with you

All my life I've waited

This is true

I know when I go

I'll be on my way to you

The way that's true

I've waited all my life

To cross this line

To the only thing thats true

So I will not hide

It's time to try, anything to be with you

All my life I've waited

This is true

yay!!! my com ok alrd..haha..yup. heard from my mum tt the guy juz came and cha the monitor..tts all..aha..yup. nothin much happ in school 2day..but r.e.w. felt kinda sian la..yup.